oh yes

fray

Raindrops,
Fall down from the sky
Not from my face
Be in a haste.
No one says
I'll be okay.

stars so far

Bereft of hope
That i used to have in fraught.
Maybe stars are right
Wishes do come true
Some don't.

Dpmb

Regrets. Took me so long.
To notice I am worthy
He made me feel like im not
I didn't notice it either
Until you chose her
I've never been an option
Nor back up plan
A stand by for years
Until i decided to move forward.
Half empty. Half free.
I wish you happy.

she and not me

I was in awe.
Both of you seem so happy together
Cheers to the one who tried to hope
Tried to stay
Yet ignored
Hooray. For four years.
Of waiting.
You got me anesthesized
By pricking pain
You caused all this time
But i pretended having no spine
No signs of sigh
Just for thee
What about me?
She's just so lucky.

We used to talk everyday.

And every night
Someone already took
My place
Of knowing every inch of you.
Thanks to someone
Who'll always be someone to me.

Oh she's lucky.
Yea, third persona.
Coz she's not me.
Don't worry,
Im still doing fine
Just dont let me see
What will scorch my eyes
Just appear bleary
when you are near
let me disappear
cover my ears
escape.
let myself go.
Devoted time that i could think of an edge
Now it's my downfall
seeing me just a a crony
She for the nth time.
Wow. She's lucky.
Still I'm not.

seriously, figuratively

idiot
second name for me
repeatedly bruised
as if i liked it very much
black and blue
towerhigh threshold
cant hold it anymore
been hurt a tower high and a half
sad laugh.

you

eyes don't lie
but why you
look into the eyes
of some other being
as if i was born
without eyes
now tell me.
who's blind?

darksome night
washed my face
not with soap
not with water
not with anything
but mask
then im no me
afresh

i would rather sucks

i would rather be paralyzed
and never walk again
i would rather be blind
than to see what's never meant to happen
i would rather be deaf
than to hear what i loathe to hear
i would rather have amnesia
so i wouldn't be aware of what i will lose
i would rather be frozen
to feel nothing but nothing
i would rather be mute
than to utter "it's okay"
when all i meant is i give up.

ignoramous

i do know where i stand
i am aware where i belong
i just know it
i just ignored
hence, causing myself
wreck my nerves to worst
persistent. consistent.
of being pain-ed
from unworthiness

daily 7 lines

im done
with everything
start anew
looking back is tempting
turning back
is a sin
move forward and forget
7 lines that i regret
of not doing it
nonsense i know
but im now in year four

behind the moon and the sea

behind the high tides
beyond the low have you ever thanked the moon? 
so far it can reach you 
yet can never be near and touch you 
like an asymptote 
it was a gap for your sake 
to gain a huge quantity 
of your felicity 
handed pain in its best quality
can't you see, sea?

Best Friend - Jason Chen (Official Music Video)

I wish every situation like this ends happily. whew!

Dear you.

dear you,

I would and I should

tell everything to you in details

but I could not.

to explain in a single word

pain

yes it is.

It hurts me more that you're still clueless

i have gone so far

and I just woke up realizing

that i've had enough

everything was too much

that i can't even handle it

waiting for me to break down

is a torture

Every part of me ceases

knowing every inch of you

It's like a suicide attempt

that i can't continue

just to be there for you

but i needed myself more than you do.

or should i say

you never needed me

nor wanted me

what else am i gonna do?

all i do is to pretend

that im the happiest creature on earth

and it kills me

every single day.

enough said.

last words would be,

i don't want to ruin what we have.

If i really can spare it. I will.

let me pause for a while

but i know it will take you

away from my sight

from my world

from my life

and knowing that things

will not be remained as it is

in the future

Confession Confusion

If she have to confess

Tell everything in details

He’ll realize

that he needs her

but doesn’t mean

he’ll instantly want her

even she waited for so long

if that happened

losing each other is much

worse than anyone could ever imagine

yes. Better be strangers

than to transform from

Awesome tandem to awkward two

and If she don’t

get back to normal

With burden

And remorse

Concealed by a facial curve

Turned upside down

Regrets in her eyes

That she deserves more

And cry it all behind

If that happened

Yes. Better be friends

And suffer from all aches

at least they will still have each other

as friends.

but she deserves even better

I hope she’ll soon wake up clever