the-there's-nothing-else-that-i-can-do-cycle

and there's this another girl

not me

and she's lucky

you feed her your attention

nothing left to me

except being a daily diary

but i tell you girl

there's nothing more about you

you got him into you

and there's nothing about me

that he would like

insecurity hormones

released in my system

cos there's nothing else that i can do

but to listen

to wait

until she'll be cleared out

of your mind

and try to evacuate that place

in you

there's no harm in trying

but it gets me a little tired

i tried

uncountable times

it took me 3 years right

nothing happened

like there's nothing happened

it started but not yet ended

i've been deaf mute and pretended

there's nothing else that i can do.

but to wait

and waste

every minute of my existence

it degrades my soul

to see your heart crawl

with that beautiful organism

and there's nothing else that i can do

but to tolerate

when it hits my threshold

dysfunctions my senses

to be unable to reach its peak

coz there's nothing else that i can do

but to wait

until someone occupies him again

and go back to the first line

of this free verse

now you know

what i can do

for him.

coz there's nothing else that i can do

but to exist.

the last full show

It’s funny

How things

Change a lot

We’re unknown

Until we shared

The same path

You joked

I laughed

I joked

You laughed

And it all started there

Years elapsed

Leveled up

I shed a tear

You joked

I laughed all my tears out

You held your tears

I joked

You laughed the frozen pain away

And it all happened most of the time

I was weak

How can this be too far?

Too far for me to handle

That I was craving for more

Then I started a talk

Said t’was about you and me

I was about to tell it all

That I fall…

…

…

I paused; not yet done

Hey wait it’s not joke

I didn’t intend to joke

Still you laughed

And it all ended at the same time.

installment

Day to day

I partially pay

My time

My effort

My will

To see you

Talk to you

Make you feel

Someone’s right behind you

Even if you’re so far away

You can’t even try to look right back at you

I was there

Putting pathways

That if you could ever lose your way

You can always go back

And you’ll find me

You’re always on my sight

This telescope, I use mine

How about you? Nevermind.

You see me

If there’s nowhere to run

I see you

As if no one’s around

I spend three years

Of installment

Of investments

As if you were a house

I partially pay

My all

Such so in time

You’ll see that it made you whole

I made you whole

For somehow

But still I can’t hope

That everything will pay off

As for now

Nothing sets the atmosphere

happy ending

I close my eyes

To ignore things

What reality tries

to emphasize

Im being blind

Im being dumb

Not yet numb

I feel everything

Striking my spine

Paralyzing my feelings

Hide.

Hide more.

Lie

Lie harder

To keep him

Longer

Until it’s enough

When every part of me

Deteriorates

Gives up

Until I feel nothing

At least I kept you

A little longer

Held on a little tighter

Even it took me

To my end.

joker's cry

I joke too much

That I impossibly

Be believed

Words I utter

Will burst you to laughter

No time for serious matters

But when it does

Everyone’s in doubt

Real hesitant

they don’t know when

when to believe

maybe I joke too much

no one takes me seriously

my bad, I see

everything was comedy

so called the laughing item, unfortunately.

5 sec

I was alone

Thinking o’ you

Hoping a call from you

Didn’t happen

Fail again

I was buying a ticket

Someone covered my eyes

And it was boooooom

Fireworks in the sky

I never expected

It would be you

I was floating

For 5 seconds

I didn’t know how to keep

The conversation on going

Totally Speechless

And you’re mouth is full

So I glanced at you instead

Questioning myself

Why is it you?

Why it had to be you?

What did I find in you?

The answer portion

Oh It took me a minute or two

Yet up to know

Left troubled and puzzled

I can’t find the words

To convince myself

Leave it as a mystery

Live it in ecstasy

mispelled

Good night

these pillows

suffocating my larynx

positioned upright

activated neurons

up for nerve impulses

your name

transmitted to every axon

and dendrites

how can I feel

parasympathetic response

when eyes are dilated

sweating

palpitating

during picturing out

thoughts of you

luckily I know who can help

alas!

Everything was in slow motion

Magnets my body to the bed

Im into closing my built in binoculars

rest well yet never shut down

dearest central nervous system

I show you my gratitude.

of having you

when I needed you, Mr. Dy.

Mr. Dy-phenhydramine.

The closer I get to you

A song

Fits the whole story

Of my friend

Who has a friend

And they’re just friends

Definition of reality

Nothing has a happy ending

Started of what they are

No less

Yet No more than that

Left in Stagnancy

I just wonder how they feel

Of having each other

But can never be together

Why on earth didn’t make you strangers?

So she’s not hurting

Herself

Torturing her mind

For ignoring her presence

Or I must be over thinking

False hopes

Assumptions in fantasy

Why am I too affected?

As If I was the third person.

Yes I really am.

Span of a week

The sound of your laugh

Good morning messages

Sarcastic replies

Joker personality

Non sense discussion

Magically turns into

Meaningful conversations

Good times

Smile on my face

Sweet sleep every night

No, it’s not actually the same

Right at this moment

Tolerable indeed

I yearn

I long

Just this much.

It sucks

you’re still clueless.

sin

Is it you?

Is it me?

Who’s the culprit?

What kind of trap is this?

Let me go.

Rather let you go.

Guess you’re happy with it.

Without me, yours truly

And so am I

While holding back

The artificial drizzles

Natural kind of catastrophe

Aches of somewhere in the core

You’re the prospect

I’m the suspect

But I was the one

Who’s wrecked

End this piece of crap

Just stab me on the neck

Tanduay eyes

Deceiving

Liquid substance

Addictive sweetness

Can’t get enough

Excitability takes the place

Hyperactivity gets the crown

Subsequently

Depression wins the throne

Palpitates a structure inside

Constricts the airways

Circulation slows down

Level of consciousness all down low

Compressed esophagus

Mistaken emergency case

Sort of erratic juices

Came out in gross

Come on let’s have another toast!

Sanitation management featuring the mechanical vectors

Dimmed lights

Untidy friends gathered

In every corner

ALL AROUND

Squeeek right here and over there

Flying tiny creatures

Can be a silent walker

With antennae in pairs

Members of Uninvited visitors

Oh oh when they come

Shout my heart out

Eyes ignored

Mouth closed

Tongue tied

Wheew! Survived for today’s calvary

See, Talented enough

Save the tranquility.

Of the early dawn

Gastric juices boil at its peak

I care not. Care NOT

Biscuits to the rescue

Or typhoid fever to serve you