plethora for naught

sweetest mistake

i have ever committed

alteration in time management

wasted all

for someone

im no woman of steel

i still have these five senses

that reminds me

every moment

that it's not easy

to exert

100% of attempts

to secrete

75% of lacrimation

to exhaust

50% of everything

to wait

for a 1% potentiality

to hold on

for a 0% real

reverse psychology

given me no call

sent me no message

no daily updates

that's good

you are doing well

you give me no distraction

and no reason

to ask for more

dream for impossible

you present reality

to me

excellently

do it more better

i'll push you away

but you're already too far

needless

enough to stay at a distance

see me whole

like a dot

fictionized reality

transforms back

into its purity

you're too far

that's enough

i can't reach you

i'll walk farther

eyes straight on the opposite side

prevent you to be magnified

seal your lips

don't look for me

don't whisper my name

don't chase me

don't follow my path

don't give me headache

please don't

blog-aches

i feel like

in the underground

you can never find me

unless you dig

i know you

nevermore you try to dare

even look down for a bit

and that aches

my toes

my knees

my shoulder

my head

seriously.

i wasted my time

hoping

you'll try to find

who's missing

what's missing

i failed.

(a)mazed

I don’t know

It’s confusing

If I care for you

Because I aim

more than of what we have

or just overwhelmed

that someone stayed for me

even as a friend

and I consider it more than that

amazed

that it took me years

and mazed

it brought me tears

with you so near

and realized

Is it true?

Why Im waiting if it’s not?

Am I just tired?

will I give up everything?

Do I regret?

I dont know.

But one thing is for sure

It’s getting nowhere.

NOWHERE.

superwoman

Sorry.

If I’ve made just this far

Maybe I forgot

That im just an ordinary human

That I can’t do everything

But for you

I did.

Miracle I must say

That I did it all

Three hundred thousand folds

But you’re just an ordinary human

I know you can’t see everything invisible

but for you

I ignored.

Sorry

If I’ve made just this far

I stand corrected

That I did everything

I forgot that I’m labeled as a superwoman

That I never thought to fly away

Nor learned how it was done

Notwithstanding

I stayed for instead

the more; the less

The more you give the more you receive

Fake truth

I’ve given all

All I’ve got

Nothing less

Beyond more

And it made no sense

Never at all

Happiness they say

Is giving

Even if you don’t receive

Any pay back in return

Or in little amounts

In short

A hundred efforts

Divided by

One being

Equates to

An almost infinity

gone too soon

Waited for so long

Yet gone too soon

tears are free flowing

I can’t complain

Hold you

Pull you back

To me

Restrain these arms

I have no right

Nothing left

In mine

Reality comes in twice

You’re not my own

In the first place

So I push you away, far away

Watch your every step

fading

and vanish.

From my sight.

As if you were never in the picture.

Abandoned you in the red room

Gone too soon

Crash me in doom